January 6, 2011
1:15 pm: I pee.
1:35 pm: I pee.
1:50 pm: I pee. (I haven’t even had that much water today, why do I have to pee so much?)
2:00 pm: I pee.
2:20 pm: I pee.
2:21 pm: I text Royce, “I’ve been peeing every ten minutes today. I think I’m pregnant, haha.”
He texts back asking me if I want him to pick up a pregnancy test on his way home. I respond, “Sure. But only if you want to.”
I can’t explain it, but I KNEW that I was pregnant. There was no doubt in my mind. Royce said that he knew too. And at about 5:30 pm, I peed again (this time on a stick). The plus sign was visible before I even finished.
It wasn’t the first time since having Annelise that we thought we might be pregnant again. I’d probably taken 4 pregnancy tests over the previous months. But this time was different. Even though I thought I was having symptoms other times, I didn’t really think I was pregnant. This time I knew. Because of excessive urination. Pregnancy is such a funny thing.
Since I hadn’t been keeping track of my cycles, I didn’t know when we conceived. I had to go in for blood tests the following week to make sure my hormones were multiplying correctly. Of course, they didn’t raise as much as they should have between the first two tests. I felt so sick. I thought for sure something was going to go wrong. Once you’ve had one miscarriage, it just never leaves you. I don’t think it matters how many healthy pregnancies I have. That one baby we lost will forever shape my feelings during those first fragile weeks of pregnancy.
I went in for a third blood test, and the numbers were much better this time around. We could breathe a sigh of relief, rejoice a little bit, and sit and wait for our six week ultrasound to confirm a heartbeat.
January 20, 2011
Royce and I went to the doctor to (hopefully) see the little flicker on the screen, representing our baby’s heartbeat. I was so nervous. The ultrasound began. I saw the amniotic sac, but at first I didn’t see anything in it. Then, in the corner, I could see the beat, beat, beat of our baby’s heart. Royce and I both cried. Again, tears of joy.
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We are so excited to welcome another little one into our family. This baby is due on September 15th. We have loved being parents to Annelise, and we hope another one will just multiply the love in our family. There are fears that I have for sure. There are days that I wonder, “How on earth are we doing to do this?” But mostly, I am just really, really excited to have another blessing added to our family. Another little bundle to snuggle. Another little life to worry about, wonder over and dream for. Another little person to love. (And we already do, Baby Baker. We already do.)
….SO excited for you guys!!